i was a good student until the crushing weight of reality shattered my hope for the future
Life is a lot easier with someone next to you or holding your hand. In moments of solitude or confinement, it can be all too easy to forget how wonderful life can be even without people by your side.
But I’m trying not to forget that I’m never truly alone. I’m trying to soak up loneliness like a sponge on the sea floor, because it’s good for me. I want this small room to be full of pictures and music and memories from the past, for it to consume me and make me feel happy rather than sad. I want to remember that I will always find opportunities to gain what I’m lacking, that loneliness is not permanent, that not having a hand to hold is fixable, that there will always be something to hold.
The bad times may feel like they weigh more than the good sometimes. But I’ve made it through them. Loneliness is never the be all and end all of anything; I have survived, I can survive, I will survive.
- James: Heyyy bff you should totally be our secret keeper yeah??
- Sirius: Nah dude. My animagus form, the reflection of my innermost soul, is a dog, the most loyal animal ever. You should probably go with guy who turns into a rat instead, the universal symbol for betrayal.
- James: Ahh yeah dude you're right omg kay cool thanks bro